# 037 - pictures!

# 036 - am soooo full... can't breathhhh

i went out for groceries and decided to buy ingredients to cook "boerenkool met worst". a typpical dutch dish i wanted to have for dinner. but when i was in the supermarket i got temptated by those chocolate letters.. archh... buttt... i had it all under control.. XD i didn't buy =P how ever i searched for my ingredients and add it in shopping trolley... but then i suddenly saw those boerenkool met worst-microwavemeal at the promotional products...

only 2 euro for a meal.. cheaper than if i made it myself.. blurr

sorry for this crappy post.. i just felt like to blog and didnt knew what to blog about haha =P

# 035 - fitting dresses

the last post was a bit sad, but sad in a good way i guess.. atleast i knew and understood my mistakes and trying to get right =). today i have something else to blog about! =P

so last week my sister texted me if i would like to join her to fit some wedding dresses!! ofcourse i wanted to join.. ohhh my gosh... she juse blew me awayyyy.... she looked amazing in those dresses!.. okay some were horrible :p but the first dress she tried on suits her soooo good.. lovin it!

unfortunately it was not allowed to take pictures.. or else i took some pictures to show you guys..

how ever... i had a lovely day...

<3

#034 - although i look big, yet i feel so tiny and small

i never really understood how people could stess about anything... why stress? just dont think about it.. just pretend there is nothing... if there is nothing then there is nothing to stress about. I've done that my whole life.. i was avoiding everything that would stress me out... it's only me, no space left for anything that would stress me out. so there was nothing i would stress about... i lived very happy, i smiled everyday... -for those who don't know..-

untill a year ago...

i got myself in problems.. cause i didnt wanted to take responsebility.. i just didnt do anything beside having fun and doing things i like.. i didnt wanted to talk about anything that would make me upset. i didnt wanted to let any others to know that i dont want to grow up,,, i want to live my life like a 16 years old.. i seriously didnt knew what i wanted to do with my life... i had an issue with myself

my sister tried to helped me with getting me where i should be... I haven't done a word what she told me to... i was so naïve and i still didnt wanted to take responsebility... i was frustrated and made many many people upset - sorry for that-

now you probably wonder why i suddenly tell you all this... that isbecause it reminds me about a tweet of someone... she said: "to become mature is to accept imperfection". And that is what i am trying to do..
people always say that i always only come up with happy stuff.. and hide my sad things. here i am telling the world how imperfect i am... and that i am working on it..

i always thought that i was good in hiding my feelings away... till some days ago.. some of my colleagues asked me if i was doing okay...

ahw well..

I'm doing fine =), except i have cut myself in my fingers >.<

ahw well i feel better after blogging.. hope to have something happy to blog about next time..

shan